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A Few Replies
By
Zen Gardner
-
15/08/2016
Senior writing letter with quill pen in homely wooden interior
by Zen Gardner
Well, things sure heated up after I published the story of my missing years. It was expected, I’ve lived with this from the inside and out most of my life and I know what triggers it sets off, especially if folks are mega-dosed with the more appalling revelations, which those videos and articles are designed to do.
I just wanted to get a quick follow up out there as the attacks against me are going viral and people need to see I’m fine and how I see this so far.
Some are calling for my head, but I have no need to defend myself. It was what it was and I got out, I tried to expose it then and after and have exposed similar dynamics in all of society ever since. Thankfully I’ve moved into new and amazing awareness and liberation which I will continue to share as effectively as possible no matter what some have decided to think of me.
It really doesn’t matter.
They have their issues to work out just as I do. As a good friend wisely said in answer to that email campaign sent out by someone to my private list and the attack articles he’s widely publishing;
Your voice is strong. It needs no guilt threaded through it.
The multitudes of people you address every day—the responsibility is on their shoulders to wake up if they can. You’re giving everything you can to bring this about.
If there are nitpickers and “gotcha idiots” out there, ignore them. They have no lives.
There are many people in this world who ought to confess to what they’ve done and what they’ve failed to do. You are not one of them.
You’ve cleared that hurdle. You’re way past that.
What we’re dealing with here are the sleeping billions. That’s the target. That’s the work and the game and the cosmic joke. And in the process, we wake up more.
One way or another, people suck on the teat of guilt and use it for their own ends. They need to see a man who won’t. They don’t know that, but that’s what they need.
You’re on the high, high end of consciousness. Way on the plus end.
So fuck it, and onward!
Jon”
It’s not easy finding out who you’re friends really are and having people you intimately trusted turn on you, but these kinds of things come out under pressure, just like my disclosure. It’s all part of the lifting of the veil. But I’m not going to shirk what Universe is requiring of me to find my true whole self and get the healing I need in order to do the job set before me, especially when I’ve been going through what was already the biggest test of my life, but so be it.
It’s all part of the process.
And I’d like to add that it’s not me that put myself on a pedestal nor ever said I was perfect; it’s people’s projections. Another societal hang up. I’m fraught with flaws like anyone else, but at least whatever I set myself to do I give it my best shot and don’t sit on the sidelines criticizing those who act. I’m doing my best to realize my true conscious self and help change a desperate world despite my flaws and past mistakes, whatever they may be.
And for those with a morbid fascination for details and think I owe it to them, you need to do some serious self examination. I’ll say what I want to say and you can just wait. No doubt there will be a lot coming out as this is a perfect avenue to help the many who’ve suffered under similar circumstances. But I don’t owe you anything, you’re again coming from a very perverse and misguided way of thinking.
And anyone following me for some reason is headed for trouble and disappointment no matter what happens. We’re supposed to be following the path of truth, not people and projections we throw up to give our own sense of responsibility away. Another unconscious societally-induced reaction.
And if this offends anyone, tough. The truth does that sometimes. Get used to it. That’s just our stinking ego taking a hit, and that has to go.
I’ll weather all this fine. As Jon said I’m sorry for those getting waylaid by their pent up angst and lack of conscious understanding, but I’m not getting near that unconscious pain body reaction. It doesn’t help anyone.
I’m a very free man, free of guilt and shame, and owe no apologies. I’ve paid my dues more times than you could count. And this might be a shock to some, but it’s coming out at the right time. Let the chips fall where they may.
I’m fully committed to doing everything I can to help free a very bound and confused world. Of that I am very proud, and deeply honored to be part of, whatever the cost.
I gave up my own life a long time ago.
All the best,
In love, Zen
P.S. This information was forwarded to me just as I finished this article. Interesting, as these things always backfire and cause unnecessary confusion and problems, but such is the nature of lower level unconscious reactions. We should be beyond this, but so be it. We’ll all learn from it.
(Image from a different website, not from Steve Seymour below, initiator of all this “sensationalism” and now ironically having to cover his tracks and connections.
“Whoso digs a pit shall fall therein: and he that rolls a stone, it will return upon him.” – Proverbs 26:27)
“Determined to take an inch and stretch it a mile without a thought, except to create the next headline grabbing click bait. People start to make shit up and even try to associate established alternative media “celebrities” with wrong-doings – simply because they may have shared a stage, an interview or posted articles written by each other.
Absolutely ridiculous – but a useful indicator of the real motive behind the headline grabbing nonsense. This really will sort the wheat from the chaff. Clearly on display for all to see will be the brain-washed, the head-in-the-sand brigade, the sensationalists – desperate to get clicks for their latest trash half-truth made up bullshit. They start to mimic the Corporate Media they pretend to want to replace.” Read more …
Interesting it came around so quickly. “Hoist by his own pitard.”
More coming soon. I’m not going anywhere.
Love, Zen
ZenGardner.com
Thanks to Zen at: http://www.zengardner.com
By
Zen Gardner
-
15/08/2016
Senior writing letter with quill pen in homely wooden interiorby Zen Gardner
Well, things sure heated up after I published the story of my missing years. It was expected, I’ve lived with this from the inside and out most of my life and I know what triggers it sets off, especially if folks are mega-dosed with the more appalling revelations, which those videos and articles are designed to do.
I just wanted to get a quick follow up out there as the attacks against me are going viral and people need to see I’m fine and how I see this so far.
Some are calling for my head, but I have no need to defend myself. It was what it was and I got out, I tried to expose it then and after and have exposed similar dynamics in all of society ever since. Thankfully I’ve moved into new and amazing awareness and liberation which I will continue to share as effectively as possible no matter what some have decided to think of me.
It really doesn’t matter.
They have their issues to work out just as I do. As a good friend wisely said in answer to that email campaign sent out by someone to my private list and the attack articles he’s widely publishing;
“Thanks for your mail. The reason Zen came out with this is that he felt the need to do so as it did not feel good to write and not address this part of his past. He wants to come clean and that is it. But maybe there is more about it. I personally don’t think so but who knows. It is his own stuff he has to deal with and it doesn’t change my view of him at all. He told me about this part of his life a month ago and made me understand him better as I saw that there were clearly holes in his way of manifesting. I do not judge any of it , it is his “shit” to deal with. If he feels he has a reason to do this, fine with me; it is irrelevant to me and does not distract me at all. No judgement to the external in any way as the only focus I have is trying to understand my innerworld and trying to stay humble and connected and grounded. Judging anything in the external reality is a judgement on parts of the Self anyway. If something in the outside world triggers an emotion in me then that is a indication of attachment and need for healing inside of me and not in the outside world. I can only be thankful to the trigger outside me at that moment for giving me that opportunity.”
That’s a beautifully conscious response that puts things in their proper perspective, if you ask me. We all move on, hopefully, no matter what mistakes we’ve made in the past.
Irony and Double Standards
What’s sadly ironic is when someone leaves the massive military cult and realizes the error of their ways and turns against it they’re treated as heroes, even if they’ve murdered and maimed and a whole host of atrocities. And I agree with that treatment, it’s honorable and they were misled and horribly abused. They enlisted, by their own choice, at a young age and with very idealistic goals, and were brainwashed under duress to obey and follow orders with strong repercussions if they didn’t.
Similarly whistleblowers who were once part of corrupt systems are welcomed and encouraged.
Very few wake up from the military programming. It would be too hard to face that the horror they committed was for nothing and they were used and abused, lied to and manipulated. Those who do wake up and make a stand, whatever crimes they’ve committed, are celebrated, and rightfully so.
The same can be applied to a whole host of hierarchical groups from religions to secret ops and societies to corporate and governmental command structures. The traps are everywhere.
How will you treat those who wake up and get out of those? Seems we have some work to do before we can call this a true awakening.
Willful Exceptions
That my situation is similar yet totally different in how people react even when I’ve had a complete and total reversal speaks to some very strong dynamics in not just society, but human nature. We seem to need someone to go after to release our rage and indignation, as well as fear. Witch hunting and the inquisition are examples of this, while attention was diverted from the horrific oligarchies and corrupt governments and leaders of their times. It speaks to unresolved personal issues in people as well that get triggered by a seemingly easy target, as mentioned in the first quotation.
It’s a sad statement of the human condition.
I want to thank all those who’ve sent words of understanding and encouragement, I’ve been overwhelmed with the sensitivity and compassion in the midst of such shocking news. It’s been a long road for me to get over all of this, but I realize it has hit many people hard and has thrown them into a tailspin, forcing them to re-evaluate everything I’ve said for so many years and even examining their own lives and skeletons in their closets and unresolved issues.
All this doesn’t diminish anything in my mind, what I’ve said and done and become came from the depths of my heart, and my past experience is largely what propelled me into joining the fray consciously with everything in me in the fight for humanity.
People can attach to me any perceived motive or agenda they want, but I mean everything I say, and will continue in my mission. If you examine the lives of many highly motivated people you’ll usually find serious traumas they had to overcome that made them into the fighters they became, in spite of their weaknesses and the heavy tragedies and traumas they had to carry in their hearts.
A Focused Fighter’s Response
I received an unsolicited reaction from Jon Rappoport that he has graciously given me permission to use as I saw fit. It says a lot, and comes from the heart of one such truth warrior.
“Here is what I have to say:
Under the trying and trapping circumstances, you did what you could. You owe no apologies to anyone.Your voice is strong. It needs no guilt threaded through it.
The multitudes of people you address every day—the responsibility is on their shoulders to wake up if they can. You’re giving everything you can to bring this about.
If there are nitpickers and “gotcha idiots” out there, ignore them. They have no lives.
There are many people in this world who ought to confess to what they’ve done and what they’ve failed to do. You are not one of them.
You’ve cleared that hurdle. You’re way past that.
What we’re dealing with here are the sleeping billions. That’s the target. That’s the work and the game and the cosmic joke. And in the process, we wake up more.
One way or another, people suck on the teat of guilt and use it for their own ends. They need to see a man who won’t. They don’t know that, but that’s what they need.
You’re on the high, high end of consciousness. Way on the plus end.
So fuck it, and onward!
Jon”
Where To?
Forward. That’s where. This has of course affected me deeply and I don’t fully feel the clarion clear call Jon mentions just yet as this has taken quite a toll on me, but it’s there in me. I won’t bend or back down, there’s no reason to. Some want more details and more groveling, an attitude is insatiable and extremely misdirected and coming from an unhealthy place as far as I’m concerned, and it’s very sad to see.It’s not easy finding out who you’re friends really are and having people you intimately trusted turn on you, but these kinds of things come out under pressure, just like my disclosure. It’s all part of the lifting of the veil. But I’m not going to shirk what Universe is requiring of me to find my true whole self and get the healing I need in order to do the job set before me, especially when I’ve been going through what was already the biggest test of my life, but so be it.
It’s all part of the process.
And I’d like to add that it’s not me that put myself on a pedestal nor ever said I was perfect; it’s people’s projections. Another societal hang up. I’m fraught with flaws like anyone else, but at least whatever I set myself to do I give it my best shot and don’t sit on the sidelines criticizing those who act. I’m doing my best to realize my true conscious self and help change a desperate world despite my flaws and past mistakes, whatever they may be.
And for those with a morbid fascination for details and think I owe it to them, you need to do some serious self examination. I’ll say what I want to say and you can just wait. No doubt there will be a lot coming out as this is a perfect avenue to help the many who’ve suffered under similar circumstances. But I don’t owe you anything, you’re again coming from a very perverse and misguided way of thinking.
And anyone following me for some reason is headed for trouble and disappointment no matter what happens. We’re supposed to be following the path of truth, not people and projections we throw up to give our own sense of responsibility away. Another unconscious societally-induced reaction.
And if this offends anyone, tough. The truth does that sometimes. Get used to it. That’s just our stinking ego taking a hit, and that has to go.
I’ll weather all this fine. As Jon said I’m sorry for those getting waylaid by their pent up angst and lack of conscious understanding, but I’m not getting near that unconscious pain body reaction. It doesn’t help anyone.
I’m a very free man, free of guilt and shame, and owe no apologies. I’ve paid my dues more times than you could count. And this might be a shock to some, but it’s coming out at the right time. Let the chips fall where they may.
I’m fully committed to doing everything I can to help free a very bound and confused world. Of that I am very proud, and deeply honored to be part of, whatever the cost.
I gave up my own life a long time ago.
All the best,
In love, Zen
P.S. This information was forwarded to me just as I finished this article. Interesting, as these things always backfire and cause unnecessary confusion and problems, but such is the nature of lower level unconscious reactions. We should be beyond this, but so be it. We’ll all learn from it.
(Image from a different website, not from Steve Seymour below, initiator of all this “sensationalism” and now ironically having to cover his tracks and connections.“Whoso digs a pit shall fall therein: and he that rolls a stone, it will return upon him.” – Proverbs 26:27)
“Determined to take an inch and stretch it a mile without a thought, except to create the next headline grabbing click bait. People start to make shit up and even try to associate established alternative media “celebrities” with wrong-doings – simply because they may have shared a stage, an interview or posted articles written by each other.
Absolutely ridiculous – but a useful indicator of the real motive behind the headline grabbing nonsense. This really will sort the wheat from the chaff. Clearly on display for all to see will be the brain-washed, the head-in-the-sand brigade, the sensationalists – desperate to get clicks for their latest trash half-truth made up bullshit. They start to mimic the Corporate Media they pretend to want to replace.” Read more …
Interesting it came around so quickly. “Hoist by his own pitard.”
More coming soon. I’m not going anywhere.
Love, Zen
ZenGardner.com
Thanks to Zen at: http://www.zengardner.com
“And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, 4They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act. 5Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou? 6This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not. 7So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. 8And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground. 9And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. 10When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? 11She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.”
